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Change... aside from death this is one of the things in life that you can rely on. Your world is changing, your environment is changing, your friends are changing, time is changing and even you is changing. Most of the time we hardly noticed the continuous changes that are happening in our surroundings. There are times that we just wake up and realize that we are changing, worse we have changed. I guess you will just realize the changes in your life if you give a good damn time of thinking about it.

We, most of the time, hate change. We often want to look at things the way we used to know them. We often do our best not to change everything that we want. But when thinking about it, we cannot prevent change, we cannot stop people or things to change. Change can be good or bad. Often the consequence of it relies on the reason why change happened. Preventing change is like preventing growth and maturity.

One thing is for sure, everything is changing, everybody is changing and the only thing that we can do is to cope with the changes that is happening in our lives. We cannot be sure if the change will favor us or not. We should learn to not to hold tight of the things that we consider important because if these things change, coping will be very difficult. Try as hard as you can you can't stop change, without you knowing you are changing in your own ways it is just that we hardly notice it or we hardly admit it.

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STRONG>Aftermath

This week is one hell of a week. I had consecutive deadlines and an exam. Although, this week again I had proven again that God is really good and He'll make a way to get you through the challenges that you are facing and He had reasons for letting you have the trials that you have.

Wednesday, my boss told me to take the following day off so that I can study for my upcoming exam. At first, I have no plans of taking a day off on thursday since I have so much to do but I followed her advice. The following day I started to review around 10am and I finished doing the reviewer around 9:30 pm. My only break was lunch, taking a bath, merienda and dinner. I was so thankful that I took the day off or else I would not finish studying.

Me and my fellow trainees also have our own bonding moments because of the exam. A good thing I guess.

Supposed to be I have 2 exams today but since some of my fellow trainees requested that the second exam be moved, we will have it on tuesday instead.

Syet..Bangag na ako...

Another well planned weekend was ruined.

Not that I regret it though.

After receiving the news about Rae's father, I wanted to talk with her as soon as possible but I really don't know what to say to her. I still find it very awkward to discuss things such as death to the persons involved. I really don't know what to say or what. Fortunately, it was her, who started the conversation. The following day (friday) right after my work, I went to the wake of Rae's father. I was somewhat relieved when I saw Rae that night, wearing her old smile and looking ok with the greeting "Anong tsismis?" She amazed me with her attitude that I wished I will be like her when the time that I'll be in her shoes. Death is an inevitable aspect of our life. I'm not afraid of death itself, I'm just afraid of losing someone I love so much. I know, I will not be that strong if the same thing happened to me.

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Again I have another experience of "nangyayari pala iyon sa totoong buhay" scenario. I will not give the details about this, kasi..basta hehehe.

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Umalis ako sa wake ng around 11 pm by request of Rae. Pinostpone ko rin ang pag-uwi ko sa Pampanga since I have plans of returning the following day kina Rae and the barkada have plans of watching Don't Give Up on Us. (yup natuloy po kami)

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The following morning nanood naman kami ng Don't Give Up on Us, well katakot-takot na panlalait lang naman ang ginawa namin sa loob ng sinehan hehehe. After that dumirecho kami sa wake ng father ni Rae. And then umuwi na ako sa Pampanga.

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The same night (saturday), nagperya naman kami, fiesta kasi the following day, me being some kind of a bastard or maybe hang-over ng panlalait sa movie ni Juday, ay mega nilait ang perya at ang ilang few selected people, kasama rito yung 4 na kabataan,mga teenagers na nagsisikan sa isang cab ng caterpillar.

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The following day fiesta so kainan galore ito. Nung gabi naman nanood kami ng amateur singing contest, para supportahan yung friend ng pinsan ko. Syempre nagfeeling judges kami sa pinoy pop superstar at nanlait ng mga contestant na kalaitlait talaga, for example, may isang contestant na inuunahan yung music, i mean wala sa timing, meron naman na akala Gay singing contest ito kaya mega falcetto inthe tune of through the rain na ang pangit pangit ng dating,kung baga yah boses babae ka pero di sya pede sa ganitong klaseng contest (as far as I remember ay nabato pa nga ata sya ng audience), meron ding ginawang linggo ng wika ang amateur singing contest na kung todo costume ng magsasaka at igorot at todo choreograph (with matching luhod effect na parang nagdedeclamation).Hehehe

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Sigh..disorganized na naman ang thoughts ko.  

Disclaimer:The following are opinions and perspectives of the author

I admit I'm a jolog. Here are my crimes

--I enjoy watching tagalog flicks. Especially those flicks from 80's and the 90'2

--I like watching old Sharon Cuneta's movies except those movies nya na love story lang.

--I like Vilma Santos' movies. One of my fave local actresses.

--I'm a soap opera lover. Teledrama, Teleserye, Telenovela, Telefantasya,Fantaserya, Chinovela,Koreanovela,Asianovela and the like.

--I prefer watching local drama than foreign drama

--I used to be an avid follower of TGIS since first batch then Click.

--I used to be an Bobby - Angelu Fan. Watched 2 flicks of them in the big screen. TGIS not counted.

--I used to be a follower of DIngdong and Antoinette love team.

--I used to be affected by Kim De los Santos weight.(Hi Tiepee!)

--I like the Sexbomb

--I'm fond of singing Aegis song.

--I used to be a Britney Spears fanatic, even fought with a Christina Aguilera fan. Have all her album except the latest 2.

--I used to be a fan of boybands. Have all albums of BSB except the recent one.

--I used to be a STEPS fan.

--I love old songs.

--I love OPM even in those days where liking an OPM song was jologs.

--I'm fond of novelty songs...uhm some of it.

--I get attached in the "Pinoy Ako" craze (Pinoy Big Brother)

--I'm a fan of Say Alonzo wahekhekhek

--I like VST & Co, ABBA and Beegees

--I used to be a follower of Mark and Jennylyn love team

--I like the songs of JAYA

--I'm planning to watch Don't Give Up on Us Baby

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P.S.

Thanks Honeypie for the pics

Guys please include Rae's father in your prayers.

Fortunately for me the exam was moved to next week. But I guess I need to continue what I'm doing right now, study!

Sigh... I feel so exhausted, physically and emtionally, even mentally.

Aking mga giliw na mambabasa, pansamantalang hindi ako makakapagblog sa mga susunod na araw sa kadahilanan na ako'y magpapaka-acad mode.

Yup you heard me right, acad mode. Nah, I'm not going to school again, literally. I have an upcoming exam next friday this is some sort of the highlight of the "school" I'm attending here in our company. I'm determined to pass the exam with flying colors. Dahil dun, I'm planning to spend my leisure time studying. Yun na lang kasi ang mga free time ko para mag-aral. Kaya matitigil muna ang aking pagbblog, kung kaya kong pigilan ahahaha. Pray for me na lang. Hehehe.

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Sometimes you only need one person to brighten up your very bad day.=)

Have you ever seen a routine in a comedy flick where a character is completely repeating what he is saying  over and over again without him knowing and another will just butt in saying the other character's line and telling him that "you have said that almost a hundred times!"

since... ah forget it.

"Asan ka na? Nakauwi ka na?"

"D pa. Dinner pa lng kmi d2 sa Philcoa"

"You call that dinner? anong oras na, gs2 mo puntahan kita dyan para me kasabay ka sa pag-uwi?"

"Late na dumating yung mga kasama namin,no nid me kasabay ako"

"Ok. Ingat. text me wen ur home ok?"

"Ok. tc.<smiley>"

After an hour or so

"Asan ka na? Nakauwi ka na?"

"Nope, d2 pa lang sa jeep papuntang haus."

"Cno kasama mo? Bkit kayo ginabi ng ganyan?"

"wla. napasarap ng kwentuhan."

"I tot me ksama ka? dapat pinapunta mo na lang ako para me kasabay ka ngayon"

"Naghiwalay na kami. Ano ba, ok lang hassle lang on your part"

"Ok lang naman tlga sa akin eh. Anyways, tago mo na fone mo,wag ka na magreply text wen ur home na.tc"

Pagdating sa haus

"I'm home na.<smiley>"

"Good, makakatulog na ako. Pahinga ka na rin. Gud nyt!<smiley>"

"Nyt rin. Thanks sa concern.<smiley>"

"Basta ikaw no prob.<smiley> Wag ka na reply,kasi magrereply lang uli ako.tulog na tayo.<smiley> Gud nyt!"

Hehehe I got an ANG PAO from MCDo it is also know as discount coupons. Hehehe Mukhang magagamit ko ito ngayon compared last year. I need to buy my breakfast sa McDo kanina para lang makahingi luckily 3 binigay sa akin! Yey!

For All Of My Life lyrics

Artist - Mymp COME & LAY HERE BESIDE ME ID TELL YOU HOW Id FEEL THERE'S A SECRET INSIDE ME.. IM READY TO REVEAL TO HAVE YOU CLOSE EMBRACE UR HEART W/MY LOVE OVER AND OVER THESE ARE THINGS THAT I PROMISED MY PROMISE TO YOU... CHORUS: FOR ALL MY LIFE YOU ARE THE ONE I WILL LOVE YOU FAITHFULLY FOREVER ALL MY LIFE YOU ARE THE ONE I GIVE TO YOU MY GREATEST LOVE FOR ALL OF MY LIFE OHHH..YEAHHH.. LET ME LAY DOWN BESIDE YOU THERE'S SOMETHING YOU SHOULD KNOW I PRAYED THAT YOU DECIDE TO OPEN YOUR HEART & LET ME SHOW ENCHANTED WORLDS OF FAIRYTALES I WANT TO LEND A LOVE THESE ARE THINGS THAT I PROMISED MY PROMISED TO YOU CHORUS: FOR ALL OF MY LIFE YOU ARE THE ONE I WILL LOVE YOU FAITHFULLY FOREVER ALL MY LIFE YOU ARE THE ONE I GIVE TO YOU MY GREATEST LOVE FOR ALL MY LIFE... ALL OF MY LIFE... ALL MY HEART.. THESE ARE THINGS THAT I PROMISED REPEAT CHORUS HIGHER

Darn, I should not be "blogging" right now, but what can I do I'm ultimately bored.

While I'm blog hopping a few moments ago(pasaway, may pinapagawa sa akin but no, blog hop kung blog hop) after reading a blog, It made me reflect about my previous post. Letting go...letting them go...letting it go.

According to my previous entry, we should not beg for someone to stay, to care or to love us. If it takes so much effort on our  part, we should let them go because we don't need it.

But how about holding on? I mean, for example, we share something beautiful with a person, we have memorable moments with a person and basta maganda yung pinagsamahan nyo, you shared joys, pains, triumphs, defeats with this person but all of a sudden everything change. Parang do we let go because things aren't the way they used to be?

But as the cliche goes it takes two to tango, same goes for holding on. Dapat both parties are willing to hold on. Paano kung nilayuan ka? Paano kung bigla na lang syang naging cold sa iyo? Paano kung kahit alam na nya na there is a possibility na mawala ka eh wala lang sa kanya? Paano kung magkaiba na kayo ng mundong ginagalawan? Siguro that is the time na mag let go.

It doesn't mean you are throwing the memories and moments to thrash. Even happy stories need an ending. Siguro nga dumating na yung ending ng story. 

And I guess while reflecting on this, I'm pretty sure ang dami ng nag-end na story sa buhay ko and the list will go on.